I often have to remind myself that my strenght comes from viewing all of my actions as choices. The only thing I have to do is die. Everything else is a choice, based on it's consequences and how I feel about them, but a choice nonetheless. I don't "have" to do anything but die. I choose to do everything until then. What an awesome power. I choose how I will react to everything in my life. I have complete control over me. Wow.